Thursday, February 26, 2009

WHAT WAS I THINKING

Well this is a subject I was really trying to shy away from (Me) but with the economy the way it is I must tell you I myself, now a number in the ranks of the unemployed.


I had a really good job working as a Concessions Manager at a arena that from the day it opened in December of 2005 has lost almost 7 million dollars all due to poor management. I can go on about reasons why but the fact of the matter is the city built a multi-million dollar facility and didn’t know how to utilize it. There were very few concerts and a facility like that cannot survive on just hockey.


The company I worked for was contracted through the management of the facility which was contracted through the city. The company I worked for was in the red this year due to the snowball effect by $300.000 or so. Because of this in the last year I had 4 General Managers I had to work for and the last one was, well…not a nice guy, he had a job to do and that was to cut back costs and all costs.


I not being blind to my surroundings and always in present time (well I try to be) hear and see what’s going on started a job search and had a few coals in the fire before the demise of my position.


I knew I was expendable. However, the working conditions got so bad, with my employees on my case because they were no longer on the schedule. The building management on my case because concession stands were not properly staffed for the events we did have. Employees that were working were pissed off and did everything in their power to try to make me look bad as I am not one to throw anyone under the bus and took the blame for my manager’s decisions. All this crap for what and knowing I would be out the door myself real soon.


Now I put up with this for a lot longer than one should as the working conditions were unbearable, my family was suffering because I would come home and vent on them when I made it a rule to never bring my work home or my home to work. I use to be good at the separation. So on February 5th of this year I turned in my keys and badge and never looked back.


Let me say this and let me make this very clear “I am not a quitter and I never ever quit a job before in my life.” But I did have some pretty good prospects for future employment and was not worried. Looking back now I can’t say that was the smartest decision of my life. And for the coals I had in the fire, well…all but one has burnt out, mmmmm.


The point of this blog is that after the fact I then read a book (yesterday in fact) titled “The Problems of Work” one of the books in the series of what is called “The Basics” in the Scientology library written by L. Ron. Hubbard. And a lot began to make sense. I saw my role and what was actually going on around me and now, have a better understanding. If I had read this book before I quit maybe I could have reversed some of the actions taking place. But again I think it was so far gone at the time, maybe not. However, I now know how I can apply this science to my next job.


I know! I know what you’re thinking, oh no another nut, a scientologist. I aspire to be a scientologist; I have read some books and taken some courses all to improve myself. The science does work when applied properly, that’s a fact.


I guess what I am trying to say is that all that went on at this arena with bad management from day one (building management) caused CONFUSION and this can be summed up in a very short excerpt from the book.


"CONFUSION COULD BE CALLED AN “UNCONTROLLED RANDOMNESS”. ONLY THOSE WHO CAN EXERT SOME CONTROL OVER THAT RANDOMNESS CAN HANDLE CONFUSIONS. THOSE WHO CANNOT EXERT CONTROL ACTUALLY BREED CONFUSIONS."


Not to say this is it in a nut shell but it was the root of the problem and without going into detail of the book it all comes back to CONFUSION.


Not only in the work place but this works for life in general.